No cheese!'

Austin's becoming more and more opinionated (or at least now he has A LOT more to say about things!). Yesterday morning when I put his breakfast on the table he said, 'I'm sorry mom. Blueberries plate please.' So told him that was nice way to ask and I went to the fridge and got out the blueberries. Then he said, 'Mom, other door please. Frozen blueberries. Yogurt too.' Now that's getting a little too specific for my liking!

When we try and take his picture these days he will say 'No phone!' and we also get the occasional 'No cheese!' which is hilarious. I don't think I've ever even said 'Say cheese' it's something he learned from an episode our beloved Sesame Street :)

An example of all of my 'No cheese!' pics

I miss the days when he would just lay there and stare and smile as long as I was attached to the camera staring into his googly eyes...like this little guy!! Check out our newest baby addition...not really mine, but a girl can dream :) My bestie Tricia and her sweet husband Scotty welcomed Baby Brody to their family on NYE. I'm in love with his little lips. He's just perfect.

"When someone else's happiness is your happiness, that is love.' -Lana Del Rey

 I was thinking back to when we took Austin home from the hospital and my mom finally left us at home to head back to her house. I walked her out to her car and then stood on the curb while holding Austin and watching her drive away I was hysterically crying thinking there was no way in hell I should be left alone with this thing. I looked at Austin looking back at me and I just thought to myself, one of us weren't going to make it to the next morning. I had no freaking clue what I was doing. Somehow, we all survived and now every night when I tuck the little opinionated monster into the bed I thank God for him and then thank God that I made it through the day. Those little boogers are resilient. They will pull through no matter what. Haha. Sometimes it's the moms and dads hanging on by a thread. Actually, since I've been diagnosed with cancer my night time prayers are less of thank you for making it through the day and more of just a thank you for the day. Moms and dads are pretty resilient too if they can let go of some of the extra worries that they aren't much in control of anyway...and let's be honest, once a baby enters, they call all of the shots, so why stress about what and when you're going to do xy&z. Those rotten stinkers will let you know :)

I look back and am not sure how things would have turned out if I wouldn't have been such a crazy detail-oriented mom with crazy lady ways. I am thankful for time to reflect back and for the countless lessons that mommyhood has taught me.

Be thankful for your day!
Love
Jenn

P.S. My first night on Taxol was MUCH better than any first night home from A/C treatment. Some minor aches aches, but much better sleep and nausea or 2 am meals! Let's hope we can work on my red blood cell count to get my energy back up and that I can keep the feeling in my fingers and toes :) (haha. that's one of the most common side effects of Taxol).