Buttery chocolatey caffeinated goodness

I noticed a theme to my latest posts...wine and fun! Haha! This weekend was no exception.

Had an awesome surprise visit into town from my favorite Young girls including my bestie Apes, her youngest sister Ash and, of course, their amazing mom, Mrs. Young. These girls have always known how to have a good time. Wine or not :) My fav part of the visit was our quiet girls only coffee on the patio while the sun was rising over the lake...I love every second with our kiddo, but every once in a while, a good cup of coffee by myself (or with a group of my all time favs) is pretty darn nice too. And for those of you who know my bestie, a sunrise that she is out of bed for really is a special occasion. Haha. Homegirl could sleep through a hurricane. No, really, she slept through a hurricane in Destin during spring break our freshman year of college! Haha.

I'm sure you've heard all of the hype about butter coffee lately (p.s. this guy is all about talking up his own products, some of which I think are worth it, some I'm not so sure. Either way, his products come with a hefty price tag and you can get a version of most of it without his name on it in a healthy grocery store).

While I'm not a huge advocate for getting all of your daily calories through drinking a cup of fat (I think you should eat food with fat too! haha) and you definitely can overdo it with too much healthy fats, if you're a person like me who's always done low fat, fake sugars, processed food crappy kind of eating to stay thin and healthy (wow, that worked out well for me, didn't it?!)...eating some good quality REAL food (including fat!) has really done my body good. Well, I've actually gained 15 pounds since I started raditaion. haha. But that can't be attributed to my yummy fatty coffee. I was drinking it when I lost 20 lbs before treatment too! I think it's a mix of the stress my body went through with chemo (stress makes your body hold on to fat) and my whacky menopausal hormones. Either way, trying to just eat to heal. Eat when I'm hungry. Just don't be afraid to eat (REAL food!)!!

I have an awesome recipe for the yummiest, healthiest coffee that I look forward to drinking every morning. Adapted from my fav Paleo food trailer Picnik...their mocha chocolatte is muy bueno baby! Although, now that I've told you I've gained 15 lbs, I'm not sure how many of you will still be into it...

Coffee
1 Tbsp raw Cacao powder
1/2 Tbsp raw Cacao butter
1/2 tbsp grass fed unsalted Butter (with a capital B)
1 Tbsp Upgraded MCT oil
2 scoops Collagen
Little bit of local raw honey 

Blend it with an immersion blender and it's the most delicious frothy cup of fatty caffeinated yumminess ever. Please don't forget to blend, or you'll have a lumpy oil slicked coffee. blech!

Changing gears...for whatever reason, a scene like this does not ruffle my feathers. Like very rarely at all do I get anxious or upset when I have a screaming toddler throwing a fit. Even in public. Austin will probably see this one day and think that he has the meanest mommy ever. I just keep moving on with our day. Thankfully, my strength is up and can carry him right on out of places when needed! Whew! I always think, you can't scare me dude, I've been fighting cancer for the last year. This little fit is seriously the least of my worries. haha.

Checkout my chemo curls coming in!! Hilarious awkward hair is definitely on my horizon for the next few months

And if it's not my kid screaming, as long as no one's hurt, I seriously do not even hear other childrens' sounds. Loud yelling kids, crying, tantrums...just a day in the life. Everyone has their own threshold for things on any given day.

BUT

My anxiety right now is THROUGH. THE. ROOF. Ugh. I can't pinpoint any one thing that is triggering my panic. I think it's post traumatic stress from the last year. Well, really, it's all still going on! This has been one wild ride for sure.

One thing I think that is in the back of my mind is the upcoming Breast Cancer Awareness month in October. Not only the studies and stories get to me, but just the reflection back on what was going on in our lives exactly one year ago. I'm headed in next week for the dreaded mammogram (last year, I had one on my actual birthday, so 33 is already looking up!). Will keep you posted on what steps we will be taking regarding surgery options from there...

In the meantime, we are getting out there, enjoying the weather, friends and family. Been walking (I gave up the running for a while. My ankle is thanking me!) to help with stress relief. Checkout our silly guy cruising along with the biggest smile ever (not sure where that big mouth came from?). ha!

If we all wore those Mickey hats with ears around, the world would be a much happier place. haha. They are hilarious. Can't help but smile when he puts it on so seriously.

Love
Jenn