A sappy hormonal post

Ugh...not sure where this is coming from. I'm blaming it on the hormonal rollercoaster these drugs are putting me on :)

Something that most of you know about me is that I am head over heels in love with our crazy 2 year old, Austin. I attempted to head back to work 4 months after he was born (I loved my job and especially loved the people I worked with), but I just couldn't cut the mustard. I lasted less than a week before resigning. I knew that the best thing for my family was for me to be home and for us to pack up and head back to Austin, TX. I just feel so lucky to have been able to be doing what I've been doing these past 2 years and really loving every (most of every) minute of it. A big shout out to my husband who not only respects my job as a stay at home mom, but also does all that he can to make sure that we have a comfortable life.

How could you not be in love with this bundle of joy??

What most of you might not know is that the chemo drugs that I'm taking (the most potent ones out there!) scramble ovaries, push young women into early menopause and most often leave survivors infertile. Women who go through my treatment who want to be able to conceive typically harvest their eggs for a later time after recovery to be able to carry a baby. This process can take up to 5 weeks and we just didn't feel that we had that kind of time to wait for my cancer treatment.

So, I know that I have an absolutely perfect little guy in my arms and there are lots of options out there for adding to our family, but it's still a tough pill to swallow for someone who loves being a mom (and a control freak who likes to be the one calling the shots). I've always imagined that I would have 2 kids. I've always felt strongly about kids having siblings. Lord knows that my life would be completely different without Aunt Stinky around and who can forget our surprise family addition, Aunt Boog (my 10 year old unbelievably one-of-a-kind sister). Those 2 have taken my life to a whole other level.

Nothing like sister sleepovers

So...still working on that 'control' lesson...still thanking God for all of our blessings and many many many more to come...still overwhelmingly full of joy for all of our friends and family welcoming little ones into their families, but I have a favor from those of you who are...let me be the crazy lady who wants to hold and snuggle and smell your babies, tell me how little sleep your getting and how you get nothing done because you feed and change the baby all day, and know that I'll still know how you only mean half of it because we all know that time is fleeting and sooner than later you'll miss those snuggly late nights and we also know that they are worth every single crazy lady hormonal postpartum meltdown because just as when things are bad, they won't always be, the good moments don't last forever either. I promise I'll wash my hands before grabbing your babies and hiding in a corner with them :)

Lots and lots and lots of LOVE
Jenn