Friends and ice cream

It's been quite the frustrating week for me. I never know how I'm going to be feeling and hate planning my day around most likely feeling yucky. A few of my most favorite girls from my old job came into town to visit me this weekend. I had lofty plans which involved an attempt to walk downtown. It just seemed like something totally normal to do. Just a few blocks. Nope. Couldn't do it. So frustrating. Thankfully, my friends were really just there to visit and the awesome weird citizens of Austin walking the Pecan Street Fest did all of the entertaining necessary. I talked with them about how I've had to change my tendency to just pretend like everything's ok and be real with people about how I feel. At one point during lunch I had to tell one of my friends who was asking me questions about life that I just couldn't talk for about 15 minutes. Carry on. I'd join in as soon as I caught my breath. It passed and we chatted and laughed. I love these girls! They were so supportive of me when we made the choice for me to resign from my job when Austin was born and pack up to head to back to Austin where Jonathon had started up our new business venture. True friends that just want what's best for you (even if it means leaving them high and dry in the middle of a school year!!). We all can see now how critical that move was for our family. What in the heck would we do if we were stuck in DFW while Aunt Stinky, Granny and Aunt Boog were here in Austin?? So thankful for many reasons that we are settled back in our favorite city. Love my ISS girls!!

I've had a few cardio tests run and will most likely also have some kidney and liver functioning panels completed to check on how these toxic drugs are affecting my systems. Should get results on those next week before my next and hopefully, final A/C infusion. I'm pretty worn down. I forgot how these drugs effect my emotions. I feel like a crazy lady!! I also forgot about the chemo brain symptoms. I actually had a full on conversation with Auntie Maaya as if she was Austin last week. I even gave her a snack! Austin was sitting on the couch watching. It was as if I was watching myself from the outside. I knew it was wrong, but I couldn't stop it. So strange. I know that this will take time to heal also. Please don't hold it against me if I do something super weird! haha. I would like a little bit longer to blame that on the drugs :) Only have to hang in there for one more treatment. We CAN DO IT!!!

Especially if I can continue to take trips to our favorite ice cream shop with my favorite guy. Austin asked me to 'take a picture of our ice cream mom!' heehee.

Still anxiously awaiting my hair fallout this week. Dr. U thought I wouldn't have as much time as I did last time...at least we know it will always come back :)

Be yourself. Be honest. Surround yourself with people who get you (even the drug pumped, hormonal, confused chemo brain self!)

Thanks again to each of you for all of your thoughts and prayers. 
Love you!
Jenn